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I hate this, I'm tired of this uncertainty in my self esteem. I just wanna join the forest firefighters or navy seals or sumthing, this way, if I suck or I'm stupid I'd be dead, and I'll know I pwn for every living moment of my life.

hahaha, funny thought

Rating my fakeness and how true I express myself: 1 to 10, 10 being highest

At home with parents: 1~2
At school: 4
And I feel like "I have solitude"/"when nobody is looking at me in school": 6~7
When I'm alone or on lj: 10