rambling non-philosophical stuff :O !

So yeah, I had a dream last night, that I went to work out again. So, this morning, I felt stronger and had a craving for more protein. mmm... protein...

Must of been cause i saw one of the bruce lee movies i got from the library (i got 2 total, woulda got more but my parents would think I'm obsessed or sumthing).

Yeah, so, maybe in all this studying at trumpet playing stress, i should just go exercise and workout some... might be good for me...

So Kevin, you know when the weight room might be open to people who aren't in their sports season?

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Gah!

My dog chewed up my retainers!!!

Oh, so my teeth will be just a lil more disoriented right?? NOOO!!! They are more than that, without them my teeth will constantly shift towards the more irregular, and without consistant teeth configuration my trumpet playing will be mediocre forever!! How the hell am I supposed to adjust and create consistancy if my body itself is not consistant at all?!

God WHY!?!?! Not now!?!?!?!

I hate this, I hate it I hate it I hate it~!~!~!~!!

Maybe it's a sign, maybe I should just quit, I was never good at this anyways, I mean, I lost to DR! Anybody who loses to DR should get their instruments sawed in halfin the slowest most painful manner possible.

God, we lost to sammamish too! I knew we were gonna lose as soon as it ended even though everybody was lying and said we did a good job, but at least sammamish could have won with glory, that would have made me feel a lil better. For those of you who are still bullshiting yourselves and letting mr. Kim bullshit you, WE SUCK! Do you have ANY IDEA how much we SUCK?! The only sammamish senior Salmon days was a drum major!! They barely had a band put togehter, they had ZERO trombones and only udnerclassmen trumpets. And we LOST! FREAKKING A!

Is there a point for me practicing at all anymore!? I see no improvement, I can't memorize anything melodic if my life depended on it, let alone play a SOLO?!? FUTZ! FUTZ IT ALL. I LOVE MUSIC SO MUCH, but I SUCK AT IT TOO! Why couldn't I have picked something I'm good at?? Oh right, I remember, there is nothing. That's why you quit everything you do, you loseer!!!! damn you, damn you, damn you.

Stupid retainers, I'll have to get them redone, but that means my teeth configuration will be all screwed up anyways, and my range is screwed, again. I hate this, I don't know why I don't just quit.