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thoughts about life, some about my own
Nov. 28th, 2004 06:42 pmOk, I decided that since I'm being lazy and since I haven't made a real post in awhile, that i should rant a lil bit, for those people who miss me. ;)
*gets more comfortable*
Ok, so I've been thinking about my purpose and what I want to do in life and yada yada. Well, actually, iwas was stuck at school cause my brother was much later than he said he would be and so I got to thinking. (this was a little while ago)
And I was very entrenched in thought when Angela came by and she greeted me friendly. At this moment, in my mind, i heard myself say "yes, another successful impression of being deep and thoughtful that people see". And then I said "wait, wasn't the whole point of this to not want to have recognition? to not want to be noticed by people? to not be caged by others? to not care about one's image in society? Why in the world do i still care about how people think of me? I am so not free" So, going off of that, i began thinking again and I played with the thought that maybe it is impossible for a healthy member of society to live entirely for themselves, without having influences or needs from his social surroundings. And so, with other people in mind, instead of having it be all about me, i attempted to formulate another possible meaning for life.
I also thought about my humanities and sciences debate I've had with myself. and I decided that Humanities, although interesting and fun to learn about, is not for me. Humanities is mostly speculation, including the study arts, I mean, it's a great study and all, but there are few rules and laws that you can base logic off of. Plus, it deals with human reaction, and humans are all different, and so, although you can analyze a peice of art and say why it has such a emotional appeal, you can't alwasy recreate that appeal using the same technique. Instead, you can just end up being cheesy. Arts and humanities, although a worthy study, are not worth me studying for 4 years about. And it's a personal journey that cannot be directly taught by a professor. They can lead you, but not teach you everything.
Science however, is hard truth. Or, at least every part of it is derived from something else, observed with the scientific method. It's something that a professor can teach you rule by rule, concept by concept. All this information takes time to digest and is worth time taking a class in college.
And now back to the life thing.
I decided that i want a career that satisfies one's soul. My working life will be about satisfying souls. Now let me try to elaborate that. One is employed because he satisfies the need/want of another person. However, I don't want to just be satisfying one's needs, I don't feel justifyed unless it is something more sacred. For example, you can be a part of a corporate machine and brainwash people about your products and make them want your products. That is not satisfying one's soul. It's not so much to catagorize a job, but it's to fix your motive of doing it. Although you might be doing the same thing as a job, the motive can change your attitude and the end result of your work. For example, a Doctor cures diseases to relieve one's soul from the fear of leaving it's loved ones or leaving unfinished business or to relieve it from pain. Not to prolong life, which has no meaning to it. An artist creates art, not to sell it for money, but to give emotional inspiration for souls who need it. A programmer doesn't write programs to help his employer make money, but to save a soul from frustration and help it do what it needs to do to furthur it's means of spiritual development or purpose.
This can make a difference because when those doctors, programmers and artists have to make a life changing decision, and they have that sacred goal in mind, they will make the right choices. The choices that not only promote happiness, but long-term happiness of the people they influence.
So this was just a bunch of rambling of not so organized thoughts. But I think I did an ok job so saying what I meant to say. Mostly for myself I guess, but I do hope this helps people who are also in similar tracks of thought and might be stuck.
I'm not going to lj cut this cause I didn't copy and paste anything, and it's not some large picture. So if it bombs your friends page, and that bugs you, you can tell me, then I'll change it. Or else I feel that it is perfectly legitamite that I want to leave this untouched and unabridged.
*gets more comfortable*
Ok, so I've been thinking about my purpose and what I want to do in life and yada yada. Well, actually, iwas was stuck at school cause my brother was much later than he said he would be and so I got to thinking. (this was a little while ago)
And I was very entrenched in thought when Angela came by and she greeted me friendly. At this moment, in my mind, i heard myself say "yes, another successful impression of being deep and thoughtful that people see". And then I said "wait, wasn't the whole point of this to not want to have recognition? to not want to be noticed by people? to not be caged by others? to not care about one's image in society? Why in the world do i still care about how people think of me? I am so not free" So, going off of that, i began thinking again and I played with the thought that maybe it is impossible for a healthy member of society to live entirely for themselves, without having influences or needs from his social surroundings. And so, with other people in mind, instead of having it be all about me, i attempted to formulate another possible meaning for life.
I also thought about my humanities and sciences debate I've had with myself. and I decided that Humanities, although interesting and fun to learn about, is not for me. Humanities is mostly speculation, including the study arts, I mean, it's a great study and all, but there are few rules and laws that you can base logic off of. Plus, it deals with human reaction, and humans are all different, and so, although you can analyze a peice of art and say why it has such a emotional appeal, you can't alwasy recreate that appeal using the same technique. Instead, you can just end up being cheesy. Arts and humanities, although a worthy study, are not worth me studying for 4 years about. And it's a personal journey that cannot be directly taught by a professor. They can lead you, but not teach you everything.
Science however, is hard truth. Or, at least every part of it is derived from something else, observed with the scientific method. It's something that a professor can teach you rule by rule, concept by concept. All this information takes time to digest and is worth time taking a class in college.
And now back to the life thing.
I decided that i want a career that satisfies one's soul. My working life will be about satisfying souls. Now let me try to elaborate that. One is employed because he satisfies the need/want of another person. However, I don't want to just be satisfying one's needs, I don't feel justifyed unless it is something more sacred. For example, you can be a part of a corporate machine and brainwash people about your products and make them want your products. That is not satisfying one's soul. It's not so much to catagorize a job, but it's to fix your motive of doing it. Although you might be doing the same thing as a job, the motive can change your attitude and the end result of your work. For example, a Doctor cures diseases to relieve one's soul from the fear of leaving it's loved ones or leaving unfinished business or to relieve it from pain. Not to prolong life, which has no meaning to it. An artist creates art, not to sell it for money, but to give emotional inspiration for souls who need it. A programmer doesn't write programs to help his employer make money, but to save a soul from frustration and help it do what it needs to do to furthur it's means of spiritual development or purpose.
This can make a difference because when those doctors, programmers and artists have to make a life changing decision, and they have that sacred goal in mind, they will make the right choices. The choices that not only promote happiness, but long-term happiness of the people they influence.
So this was just a bunch of rambling of not so organized thoughts. But I think I did an ok job so saying what I meant to say. Mostly for myself I guess, but I do hope this helps people who are also in similar tracks of thought and might be stuck.
I'm not going to lj cut this cause I didn't copy and paste anything, and it's not some large picture. So if it bombs your friends page, and that bugs you, you can tell me, then I'll change it. Or else I feel that it is perfectly legitamite that I want to leave this untouched and unabridged.
