king-co jazz

yeah, I'm surging with negative energy right now. It's not like we're there to win, but if I let myself screw up now, it'll be a precedent for me to screw up the rest of the year. I am utterly disgusted in how vulnerable my mind is. It's not fair, why can't I have the will power and determination to drive myself forward? What the freak is wrong with me? I'm like that dude in the bible story who was lying next to the pool that cures diseases and used it as an excuse to be worthless cause everyone gets in it before he does.

Arghhhh!, shut up TED!! all this talking you're doing is only making it worse. I just need to memorize a lil piece of crap i wrote, it's not hard at all. Eye of the tiger, foo! Eye of the tiger!