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Apr. 11th, 2004
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Apr. 11th, 2004 11:46 pmdamn it, nothing I did that i wanted to do makes me feel happy. Is there something wrong with me?
Lost will to work for grades after I got straight A's last semester, and didn't feel accomplished.
Now I got 3 B's, and I feel even worse, which means I only incentive would be to feel kinda bad, not really bad.
Stayed up last night, finished Baldur's Gate II's Watcher's Keep, still not satisfied.
Played some gunbound, got pissed off at rude players (didn't even find ONE reasonable person).
It appears as if anything I do, no matter how hard I worked to get it (not including the gunbound example), doesn't give me any satisfaction. and when I don't do well, it makes me feel like crap. So no matter what I'll feel like crap, because there is no way I can do EVERYTHING well, but doing something well doesn't make up for not doing something well.
Oh, just forget it, I'm just being stupid.
Lost will to work for grades after I got straight A's last semester, and didn't feel accomplished.
Now I got 3 B's, and I feel even worse, which means I only incentive would be to feel kinda bad, not really bad.
Stayed up last night, finished Baldur's Gate II's Watcher's Keep, still not satisfied.
Played some gunbound, got pissed off at rude players (didn't even find ONE reasonable person).
It appears as if anything I do, no matter how hard I worked to get it (not including the gunbound example), doesn't give me any satisfaction. and when I don't do well, it makes me feel like crap. So no matter what I'll feel like crap, because there is no way I can do EVERYTHING well, but doing something well doesn't make up for not doing something well.
Oh, just forget it, I'm just being stupid.
