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I was just about to blog about how I just got my cadenza for the Haydn trumpet concerto when the festival is 2 weeks from now, when I saw kevin's blog about his grades. So I thought, "What the heck is wrong with me?" Ok, so I've been working on this piece for the last 3 months or so, but it's been held back by the time I've spent on hw. Now I'm confused, because I have a 50% chance of getting a B in WHAP right now, and could of had straight A's easily, but I didn't give a crap. And this is supposed to be my #1 priority, and now I'm worried about a cadenza while my homework piles up on my desk.
Confused, that's all I am right now. I'm not very good at trumpet playing, so why do I even care? Peer pressure? I could guess so, but I don't that many friends in band anyways, and most of them aren't encouraging me to play or anything. Mr. Kim has no grip over me, I mean, one of my motivations to quit IS to piss him off. Next year, Last year's juniors are going to graduate, and I will be stuck with last years sophomores (interesting to look at it eh? timeflys). And I don't like a large amount of the juniors this year in band (Not that I don't like them, but they exert no influence onto me).
I dunno, I'm just rambling, I guess the problem is, why am I working so hard? and why should I stay in band? And that I should make my decision fast, so if I put more time into it, it won't end up having to all go to waste.
Confused, that's all I am right now. I'm not very good at trumpet playing, so why do I even care? Peer pressure? I could guess so, but I don't that many friends in band anyways, and most of them aren't encouraging me to play or anything. Mr. Kim has no grip over me, I mean, one of my motivations to quit IS to piss him off. Next year, Last year's juniors are going to graduate, and I will be stuck with last years sophomores (interesting to look at it eh? timeflys). And I don't like a large amount of the juniors this year in band (Not that I don't like them, but they exert no influence onto me).
I dunno, I'm just rambling, I guess the problem is, why am I working so hard? and why should I stay in band? And that I should make my decision fast, so if I put more time into it, it won't end up having to all go to waste.
